Selfish

Sad, deflated and confused.
I should be happy right now, why do I feel so tearful?
It’s because I realise I definitely have to share you now.
I have enjoyed it just being us.

 

I know you need more than me.
I know it in my heart.
We’ve even talked about it.
So why do I feel irrelevant now that you have your other companion back?

Don’t get me wrong, I am so pleased for you.
It’s been a hard road
Full of anger, disappointment and stress
You deserve this happiness, you deserve that friendship

 

I’m sorry I feel this way
I don’t mean to
I value our friendship so much
I just don’t want to pale in comparison.

 

I don’t want you to spend time with them and forget about me
Yes, I still feel as though I can be forgettable.
I know you care about me
It’s just my insecurities.

 

I’ve prayed and asked God to cleanse me of these negative feelings
Rid me of my selfishness and make me happy to share
Keep my genuine happiness for your rekindled friendship
And keep being honest and true.

I love God
I love you.
Just please don’t forget me…