Dear Lord
I don’t know what I’m doing
Today is just one of those days when I want to cut
Isn’t it crazy?
Today is one of those days where I want to watch myself bleed.
Now that’s crazy.
I want to literally lose myself in someone else…
In someone else’s arms
Lost
And hurt
What do I do now Lord?
I’m on a roller-coaster
Up and down, up and down
Down and out
Lift me
Because I can’t lift myself
Fill me
Because I am empty
Give me life
Because right now I am just about existing
How is that?
Joy comes in the morning?
I’ve been awake for hours now
Is my morning when I woke up or when everyone else says it’s morning?
I want to do all the wrong things
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