In Loving You, I Was Loving Me
I don’t want to chase this man I don’t even want this man Not when having this man means abandoning myself Things have changed with this man Once an initiating man Wanting to take me out and know how I really am man Now the…
It Was Always You
To be looked at is not the same as being seen.To be touched is not the same as being discovered.I do not want to be admired from a distance,nor consumed in passing. I want to be understood.To be considered.To be held in thoughteven when I am not in the…
A Love I Could Not Keep
Both our hearts breaking beneath the weight of goodbye, the pain returning as though it were the very first time. You were someone I prayed for, but never really thought I would get, you came unexpectedly, I was ready, or so I thought. After labouring on…
Going to Church Again are we?
It had been about 3+ years since I was attending a church on a regular basis. That’s quite a while to go without a chuch community – something I value quite highly. A total of 4 house moves and 2 new cities later and I have finally decided it…
Weaponising Me
Should I open my mouth and tell you my thoughts? You breathe deep, Passively listen. And tell me my thoughts are wrong. The way I think, pisses you off. Is it because my thoughts challenge you? As opposed to gratifying your ego. Man, you are too…
Where Do We Go From Here?
I look at you now And all I feel is distance I’m sat but a few centimetres away Yet it feels like miles It’s been a bumpy season Miscommunication, assumptions and unhappiness Take some space you say? At first it was a “no”, but now I’m not so sure Is…
Not Sure Yet
Displaced. Moving around, trying to find my home. No luck. Each place feels lonlier than the last. I don’t know where I want to be right now. But that’s not quite true… If I’m being completely honest, there’s no where I want…
CB: Came and Left feeling Defeated
One of my last counselling sessions was a difficult one. I had multiple ailings to discuss and was just feeling hopeless about everything. One thing I find difficult is admitting when I’m wrong and then having to receive the confirmations about that fact…
Compressed Thoughts
I try to write, but my words are too jumbled to make full sentences No relief from this pressure and torment I just want to cry But I can’t – it’ll just be an inconvenience I want cuddles and someone to just listen, but my person has a…
CB: I Am Fat?
*Phew* this is a difficult one. I’ve had this post in my drafts for months now, but I’m feeling the fear and doing at anyway. Do you know how hard it is to say that word? “Fat”? How society has depicted the word to be a negative connotation. Akin to…