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In Loving You, I Was Loving Me

By samara.johnson
25/10/2026 2 Min Read
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I don’t want to chase this man 

I don’t even want this man 

Not when having this man means abandoning myself 

Things have changed with this man 

Once an initiating man

Wanting to take me out and know how I really am man 

Now the man who is abandoning me, man

Making me question my worth man 

Am I hard to love man?

Am I no longer worthy?

You were once a consistent man

Someone I could trust man

The one I wanted to build a life with man 

Now you’re gone man

No longer man

You left me man 

I’m alone 

But that’s okay man

Because I have myself man

Had a life before you man

You better understand man, before you I was fine and I will be again 

This is not the end man

My God has a plan man  

You were an experience, to learn and grow from man

I’m thankful man

You showed me what a man looks like when he knows what he wants 

Sharing his feelings and thoughts

Full transparency, no blindspots

Feeling wanted, even when I didn’t want myself 

You unveiled what I am capable of

Unlocked a new avenue of my being 

In loving you, I was loving me

No longer a good-for-nothing man

More so…

A woman learning to love herself, man

A woman learning to hold herself, man

To remind her inner child she’s safe

Even when the world feels uncertain

A woman who knows she can love, man

A woman who knows she can feel safe, man

A woman who knows she is worthy of love

Even when you no longer love her

You helped me meet her, man

But you don’t get to keep her, man

She’s still here

I’m still here

And I’ll be okay again, man.

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I'm just a woman seeking to express herself freely without anyone's judgement and unwanted opinions. Just read and reflect. May my art be catharsis for you.

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