In Loving You, I Was Loving Me
I don’t want to chase this man I don’t even want this man Not when having this man means abandoning myself Things have changed with this man Once an initiating man Wanting to take me out and know how I really am man Now the…
A Love I Could Not Keep
Both our hearts breaking beneath the weight of goodbye, the pain returning as though it were the very first time. You were someone I prayed for, but never really thought I would get, you came unexpectedly, I was ready, or so I thought. After labouring on…
Weaponising Me
Should I open my mouth and tell you my thoughts? You breathe deep, Passively listen. And tell me my thoughts are wrong. The way I think, pisses you off. Is it because my thoughts challenge you? As opposed to gratifying your ego. Man, you are too…
Not Sure Yet
Displaced. Moving around, trying to find my home. No luck. Each place feels lonlier than the last. I don’t know where I want to be right now. But that’s not quite true… If I’m being completely honest, there’s no where I want…
CB: Came and Left feeling Defeated
One of my last counselling sessions was a difficult one. I had multiple ailings to discuss and was just feeling hopeless about everything. One thing I find difficult is admitting when I’m wrong and then having to receive the confirmations about that fact…
Compressed Thoughts
I try to write, but my words are too jumbled to make full sentences No relief from this pressure and torment I just want to cry But I can’t – it’ll just be an inconvenience I want cuddles and someone to just listen, but my person has a…
CB: I Am Fat?
*Phew* this is a difficult one. I’ve had this post in my drafts for months now, but I’m feeling the fear and doing at anyway. Do you know how hard it is to say that word? “Fat”? How society has depicted the word to be a negative connotation. Akin to…
Deja Vu
I moved cities To avoid you The thought of seeing your face Unexpected Double-take, deja vu No longer wonder, nor worry Just a distant memory Another life A former lifetime A Hell I never thought I could escape from…
A Letter to my Father
Dear Dad, When I look at you, I see all the things you were neglected of from your childhood. Because they were all the things you neglected to provide for me in mine. One of the most precious things a Father can give to their daughter is the knowledge…
Let It Go
It’s hard to let go Of the things that are good for us But it’s harder still to let go Of the things that hurt us Because after putting up with that hurt for so long You no longer know how to live without it Sometimes the worst things become our greatest…