In Loving You, I Was Loving Me
I don’t want to chase this man I don’t even want this man Not when having this man means abandoning myself Things have changed with this man Once an initiating man Wanting to take me out and know how I really am man Now the…
A Love I Could Not Keep
Both our hearts breaking beneath the weight of goodbye, the pain returning as though it were the very first time. You were someone I prayed for, but never really thought I would get, you came unexpectedly, I was ready, or so I thought. After labouring on…
Weaponising Me
Should I open my mouth and tell you my thoughts? You breathe deep, Passively listen. And tell me my thoughts are wrong. The way I think, pisses you off. Is it because my thoughts challenge you? As opposed to gratifying your ego. Man, you are too…
Where Do We Go From Here?
I look at you now And all I feel is distance I’m sat but a few centimetres away Yet it feels like miles It’s been a bumpy season Miscommunication, assumptions and unhappiness Take some space you say? At first it was a “no”, but now I’m not so sure Is…
CB: Came and Left feeling Defeated
One of my last counselling sessions was a difficult one. I had multiple ailings to discuss and was just feeling hopeless about everything. One thing I find difficult is admitting when I’m wrong and then having to receive the confirmations about that fact…
Deja Vu
I moved cities To avoid you The thought of seeing your face Unexpected Double-take, deja vu No longer wonder, nor worry Just a distant memory Another life A former lifetime A Hell I never thought I could escape from…
CB: Motherhood?
This is quite easily one of the things that scares me the most. You know it’s one thing you can’t really take back or have a trial period for? It’s for life. My thoughts and feelings toward Motherhood, especially in regards to becoming a Mother myself…
CB: I Got Read to the White Meat
*insert* Now there are some counselling sessions where your counsellor reads your behind like a book. And I mean “read” like telling you about yourself FULLY. And that is precisely what happened to me. Now I have been having a situation recently (well,…
A Letter to my Mummzy
Dear Mum, If you are not a God-send. You loved me at my most unlovable moments; and what means the world is that you had no reason to, you didn’t have to stay, you didn’t have to care, but you did and still do. No one understands how much of a blessing…
A Letter to my Father
Dear Dad, When I look at you, I see all the things you were neglected of from your childhood. Because they were all the things you neglected to provide for me in mine. One of the most precious things a Father can give to their daughter is the knowledge…