My Journey

Where is my life heading?

The ever present question

 

Gazing out at the city streets down below

I wonder

 

Unsettling tightness in my chest

Unease encroaching like clouds on a rainy day

 

My body uncomfortable with the need to move

Bigger, better, faster, smarter

 

In contemporary culture we were never made to be enough

Constantly under the pressure of making your next move

 

Being pulled between the two

The world and the Kingdom

 

What would you do?

 

One gives me pressure insurmountable, soul weary with the strain

The other gives peace, permission and time for rest

 

 

 

Life over the past few weeks have truly been a blur

So much has happened

 

Yesterday feels like last week and

Tomorrow feels like today

 

I’ve chosen peace

I’ve chosen permission

I’ve chosen to have a time for rest

 

This is my time

 

God is telling me to calm my thoughts and slow my strive

And go at the pace of Grace

 

The moment of acceptance gives my heart the freedom to beat to its own rhythm

My body to exhale without the urgency to inhale

My soul to simply exist

 

My journey is one I’m still trying to understand and when I don’t understand, just having faith

He’s never failed me yet.