Run

I don’t know why, but I feel like I hate them all right now
I hate that I have to tolerate the bull right now.
I have to smile and pretend
Just move forward, being loving

 

But how?
When the smallest things irritate my inner soul
When I have no other option but to stay and be a part of this
When all I want to do is run

 

I want to run so far that I forget where I came from.
I want to run so fast I forget the measure of time
I want to run on my own terms so that I may be able to smile a genuine smile for once

 

I long to run

 

A part of me is afraid that once I leave I’ll never look back
Guilt floods my thoughts and mind
Am I being selfish?
Should I rethink my mindset?

 

But then I realise that God has put things a certain way for very specific reasons
I have them in my life for a reason
I have negative thoughts for a reason
I want to run for a reason

 

I’ll follow my path
I’ll keep my faith
I’ll run with God beside me every step of the way

 

Wherever I end up
Whatever I end up doing
I will be happy, I need to be happy.