Touch
Us humans are so sensitive to it
Like electricity running through my veins
I crave it
Touch
I’m split in two
Half of me wants that touch
The other half of me is disgusted by it
Repelled but enchanted at the same time
Touch
So gentle but so unexpected
So sensual but so dangerous
So hungry yet so empty
Touch
Thoughts of you flood my mind
Thinking about your touch
It begins
Touch
Thoughts of you invade my mind
Thinking about your hands all over me
Please stop
Touch
I smile to myself, I get hot under my clothes
A pool starts form from within
My fingers edge further down South
Touch
My smile is tense, I get hot and uncomfortable
I curse the dampness in my underwear
My fingers start moving although I don’t want them to, I wish they wouldn’t
Touch
My fingers find their destination
The thoughts of you get more animated and intense
My fingers move in a consistent circular motion, getting faster still
Touch
My fingers had found the forbidden fruit
These lust filled thoughts of you get deeper still
My fingers move in circular motion, jaunty and unsure – should I be doing this?
Touch
My eyes are shut in ecstacy, so close…
My fingers working faster to completion
Like jumping out of a plane and feeling the adrenaline, I feel that rush as I climax
Touch
My eyes are shut tight, trying to block this out
My fingers continue in their mission – the sooner it’s over the better
I reach my end, a moment of exhilaration. Immediately replaced with disappointment
Touch
I smile to myself
I turn over and go back to sleep
My mind absent of any further thought
Touch
I cringe on the inside, screw my eyes shut in frustration
I say sorry for the 100th time
Turn over hastily and try for some forgiving sleep
Touch
The Devil is a liar
Only God is the truth
The Devil turns a blind eye
God sees and knows all
Touch
I am split in two
Ying and Yang
Good and Bad
Virtue and Sin
Touch
How can it feel so good but be so bad?
Touch
How you corrupt my mind
Touch
Is there a virtuous kind?
Touch
God what do you have in mind?
Touch
I need God’s guidance more than ever
Touch
Before this addiction causes my relationship with God to sever
Touch
Sin please leave my mind
Touch
God I need you to loosen this bind
Touch
Let me rise above this
Touch
So I can enjoy with God eternal bliss
Touch
Only yours God is what matters
Your touch is all I need
For as long as I’m living
I’ll keep this holy creed
