Same Cycle
I’m back in that cycle again.. of getting up and wanting the day to be over already I’m not suicidal or anything. I’m just not enjoying life right now And I think that’s fair and not out of the ordinary Inflation Living to work Just barely existing I am…
Not Sure Yet
Displaced. Moving around, trying to find my home. No luck. Each place feels lonlier than the last. I don’t know where I want to be right now. But that’s not quite true… If I’m being completely honest, there’s no where I want…
My Recent Burnout
I feel I experience burnout more often than is healthy as I am only 26. Nonetheless, I can definitely speak on it. Several weeks ago, I was juggling multiple things, trying to make things work, and overthinking until there was steam coming out of my…
Anyone Else Lost?
I feel that I frequently return back to my position, on my bed, staring at the ceiling thinking: “WTF is this life?” Please don’t let me be the only one. About 85% of the time (90% on those real wonderful days) I have no freaking idea what I am doing. Or…
I am a Woman and I am Scared
Blessing Olusegun. Sarah Everard. The thoughts that come to mind when I say their names… Horrible. Scary. Why her? Could it have been me? My blood runs cold because it could have been any one of us. I get scared all over again. As a woman, I have…
Depress
Depression what a lonely concept Tears, others won’t understand Reasons, limitless Scrubbed out face Deserted place Forgotten, invisible Last in the race The concept of depression is lonely
The Year Pt 1
Thrown in at the deep end Nothing could have prepared Fast-paced Rod, no staff “so good” So much stuff Christ light snuffed Hands in cuffs No longer on my feet On my knees Sun eclipsed Day turned to night Aimlessly existing Day by day Grace…
Lesson Number
Pain. Darkness. Regret. All these things I feel after doing the deed. No matter how many times I make the same mistake. I am never prepared for the deep hurt I cause myself. Tears come to my eyes. A tightness in my chest. All I want is to curl up in a…
Roller-Coaster
You came into my life like a breath of fresh air, You scared me and enticed me both at the same time. You were different, new, somewhat unpredictable, My complete opposite. I like routine, stability and familiarity, You held not one of these attributes,…
Losing Samara Johnson
You. So cool, cold and disinterested. Me. So open, honest and wanting. A whirlwind of a journey you joined me on. Three years of my life I lasted longer than I give myself credit for. Too much to fit into this one space. Deep breaths. You knew exactly…