I’m sinking
Lower and lower
The surface is so far away
I’m not even fighting it anymore
I’m panicking
My breathing restricted
I want to get out
I don’t know how
My heart wants to explode
There’s too much strain
I need an outlet
An escape from this pain
I know why I feel this
It’s because I have distanced myself
From my one true love
The Holy One above
I keep on sinning
Telling myself it won’t matter
Because I don’t matter
Where did this come from?
I’m losing control
I’m lost and I’m scared
I want to be found
I don’t want to be dead
I need to open my heart
Take a deep breath
Make the first step
And God will do the rest
I want to feel peace
I want the best
I want a good sleep
I want Jesus Christ
I want to stop deteriorating
I want to be straight
I want the hate to go away
I want to pour love into myself
This is one of those moments
Where no other human can help you
I’m crying out Lord
Am I worth the trouble?
If I were You I wouldn’t
I’d think it were a waste of time
I’d leave me to rot
And move on with my time
But that’s why You’re God
And not any of us down here
Because you’re on a different plain to us
You make sense of what’s unclear
I feel a little relief
I know it’ll take time
And I’ll persevere
Because your love will always be mine
